DMT Breakthrough: Through the Veil and into the Cosmos

Artwork by Android Jones

By J Anon, USA

30mgs: it was supposed to be a recap of the last time. Euphoria, vibrant colors stretched in multiple x,y,z plains, all intersecting each other in one place and others at the same time. Colorful translucent chromatic living shapes that do not have names… open eyes show life in the room to be similar but so different, from a nearly fish-eyed perspective of beautiful blissful colors.

Looking through a space where the air was not so see through but iridescent liquid, the pixelated salt lamp in front of me appeared to be on fire! I could feel the heat as if it were the sun on a warm summer day at the beach… fading and then returning.

"Wow... it's so beautiful!!", I would say several times. "It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen!"

That's what I was after - but that's not what I got.

I knew it was going to be a ride…

30mgs, plus what had been collecting on the internal neck of the GVG from several sessions. I hit it with purpose, efficiency. Slowly, trying to get the most out of it in one go. I sat back and felt the initial blast off; the tingling of my face and neck, my heart racing… and then the visuals started.

All turned to pixels then total blur… waves of intensity. I knew it was going to be a ride, but then I was gone. Vibrant geometric spiralling patterns like I had seen before, but this time it didn't matter if my eyes were open or closed. I couldn't tell you now which way they were. I started seeing an orange glow behind the patterns that was taking on a shape I hadn't seen before.

I flew toward to center of a magnificent flower shape

Petals were forming, the only sweeping, rounded forms I have ever seen on DMT. They were staggered and layered, slowly and gracefully spinning as I drew nearer. I was flying towards the center of this magnificent flower shape. At that moment I understood what it was, the chrysanthemum.

"No - it wasn't supposed to be this time," I thought to myself. I knew I had no choice in the matter, so I embraced it without fear, but warm welcome. I found myself in this vast room that was no room. There was no limit to the walls; it was like floating in space but with no stars.

I could feel my glasses on my face and reached up to pluck off the article that was restraining me from my new form, and I was free.

There were multiple intersecting plains with unimaginable detail of shapes, all churning against each other in a counter-clockwise motion. It was like being inside of a giant dodecahedron of sorts.

I came face to face with the mechanics of the universe

I understood then, I knew what it was. I felt this overwhelming presence, as if I was staring in the face of an enormous ancient dragon. It radiated power; a being that had no face, no individual defining shape. I knew that it was the universe - all of the cosmos - but the veil was removed and I could see it for what it was. I was looking at the gears; the mechanics behind all that is… it was timeless and omnipresent.

Symbols lined much of the support structure. I could see them until I tried to look directly at them to study them. I wanted to remember and draw them, but I was not able to focus on them; when I tried they would be blurry. Non-direct visions of them were all I could see. Shapes that I could never make up normally - everything was so intricate and fluid. Colored chrome designs of amazing detail: mostly sky blues, silvers, light greens, and light purples, but always changing.

I was there for an eternity, maybe, and I was happy to be there. I would have stayed forever if I could have. I had no body for most of it - I was energy and I was a part of everything. It was so peaceful and warm. I was happy and amazed.

I realized I had broken through

After some time (how long I'm not sure, time felt funny to think about), years, hours, days? I had no idea. I started to know that I had legs but could not see them. I just felt like I had a shell of knees, then hands, feet touching the floor, breath in my lungs. My vision started to return and I could faintly make out the room around me.

I then realized that I had broken through. I was alive and felt gratitude for life, the universe, the experience. I thanked the cosmos for allowing me to see that, and felt loved. It was amazing and humbling. We worry about so much that seems to not be worth the energy: material things, arguments, etc. Things so miniscule in comparison, we should focus more on caring for each other and enjoying the people in our lives.

I want to believe that that was what is really out there waiting. It seemed so real... felt so real, as if I was shown the truth. It was utterly amazing but also likely just what I have to believe it is - just an amazing substance, no matter how eye opening it was.

It is something I wanted to share with the world, but words don't do it justice. If only we could hit record!