A Non-Experience with Ayahuasca

Andrews, USA

First of all, I prepared for the ceremony as it was required (by having a specific diet, not watching aggressiveness on tv/computer, etc). I also brought to the experience my favorite music for getting out of a bad state, just in case.

All in all, I respected the plant.

I took the first glass and, one hour later, I was asked if I felt anything. The answer was no, so I asked for another.

2 hours from the starting point I got some visuals, very light, which disappeared when I opened my eyes.

I then asked for another glass.

The visuals got just a bit stronger but, besides that, no other effect.

Meanwhile, in the room, people that only had 2 glasses started going through various states, laughing, crying, vomiting and all of that.

One of the guides told me that my mind was too strong. I cannot agree more, but even with that answer, I know of other substances that put me into an alternative state of mind and I also do holotropic breathwork where I can go through similar states like the ones I saw in the room.

After 3 hours I just gave up and helped my girlfriend who was there with me, going through a tough spot in the process.

I consider the substance to be authentic as the other people were more experienced than me and have traveled to Peru various times for similar ceremonies.

Other people had fantastic experiences that gave meaning to their life or answers to their questions. But it didn't help me (nor did it help one other girl that was also pretty mental).